Choir...FAIL

Monday, is a special day.
Because today, the results for my school's choir audition will be out.
I have a freaky suspense, as the results may be good or bad.
Either ways, it's the final decision.
So, i should start praying hard...

But when i saw d results...
How am i suppose to explain my feelings eh?
=___=...

It was hard to swallow the fact.
I FAILED ~
Yes, a typical failure, the person I am.
I felt like laughing and wailing.
I'm a twisted person...-.-

Obviously, I was in shock.
I wanted to enter the choir team so badly.
Reason 1 : I want to sing =.=
Reason 2 : Cocurriculum marks{27 marks in total !}
Reason 3 : You can dress up nicely for the choir competition...

Hehe. Cocuriculum marks is just a benefit if i get chosen.
But it doesn't doesn't matter much.
I've secured enough marks already.
Still it won't harm if i get the chance to boost up my total.
What's mine is mine, not mine don't chase -.-
Be grateful?

Tell the truth.
I kind of liked the audition day {19Jan, Mon}
We get to sing songs! :DD
Somehow, it's a Malay song-.-
Gemilang by JaclynVictor.

A song is still a song, so typically...
I won't mind what kind of songs,
As long as i'm given the chance to sing,
I'll fall for it with my heart :D

Bleeding, pain or anything.
Nothing can stop the fun of singing XD
The feeling of not wanting to stop.ever
Because when you stop,
You might never know when you can continue.

If you can't find the route others made.
Why don't you start your very own path.
Make your own fantasy come true.
Its a belief of dare and hope.
Let people acknowledge you.
Rather than locking up your dreams.

So, it doesn't sound that bad i failed for choir.
I am not qualified but i will still think i am.
Because my mother always tells me.
You're special, so by hook or crook.
I'll make it come true!

My voice...
Probally is a bit dead in melody structure...
From what i interpretate from people's reaction and my own thoughts
It's unsuitable for singing -.-

Still !
I love my voice because its mine and only mine :D
I'll try to figure out what to do with it
Soon enough :$

A Bright New Day

It happened.
Just for today.
Just for this morning.
I attacked myself.

I got lost in thoughts.
My dreamy self stops.
Wonderland shatters.
The reality sucks.

Realize, doubt, insecure.
I want to see Her smile.
But can She listen to my heart.
The heart trailing for Her happiness.

I shiver with tears,
Forcing themselves on me.
My smile wavers with falseness.
Eyes drowned, staying afloat.

I want to help.
Do anything.
To see Her enjoy life.
Seeing Her happy is all I want.

Whispering words.
Caring for truth.
Denial is safer.
Laughing is remedy.
Patience is love.

Edge of breaking.
Heart aching.
End of hopes.
Until i see Her smile again.

I saw the sun.
When clouds washed by me.
Rain was just a nasty thought.
It had never meant to rain.

Voice found me.
Singing crappy tunes.
Rewinding for i know,
That's how i comfort myself.

I tell myself.
She deserves more.
Cross my heart.
The fire burns.

But at last, it ended happily!
I won't have to worry anymore.
Just trying to stay alive longer.
Tough but life is a saying for yourself.

First Day of School

One whole week just passed by
Coming in line another week to go =.=
Time never stops.
Don't you agree with me....

I've been waiting like hell for school to start on the first day.
Not a normal feeling but a special year i guess.
SPM didn't affect much of my mood.
Another hell of exam, that's what i realize.
Still, I love books, and i love exams. -.-
Know why, homework is my worst enemy.
And exam period is my savior.

I feel like a Form1 again, getting all tensed up because of school.
Wearing your uniform, tying your shoelace, packing your school bag.
Ahh~ I'm missing all these soon.
How many more months eh?
Let's keep the clock ticking. :)

This year, my one lone surviving aim.
Do my homework.............
Its one big obstacle.
I'm doing my best, and most of my friends are shocked. XD
I wonder how long can i last.
But one thing's for sure, i can't escape BahasaMalaysia and Moral...
I'm going to get screwed if i missed any of their homework...

Good news for my co-curricular activities.
I managed to score some posts this year, my last year.
I'm the treasurer for :-
TourismClub{Koperasi +Pengguna}, Mahsuri SportsTeam, Carom
Yes~ I'm the treasurer for all the clubs I'm in. XD
And of course, I won't stand a chance in PBSM.
I'm just overly passive there. :)
And one big thanks for my friends who supported me all the way.
Those who encouraged me to take on the challenge.
Thank you. :)

GameS

Game is a CRIME!

It drives you deep into its fun wonderland.

Then you won't even realize you just spent your whole day on it.

But its a fun thing to do.

You meet lots of people, share interest, attack and being attacked.LOL

You never know why.

But it keeps your soul alive. haha

But today, the limit comes.

I have to stop all my games.

No more SororityLife, BackyardMonsters, or X-DO.

I have no regrets to stop gaming.

Because i'm proud of my achievements.

And as for blogging.

I'm not going to shut it down.

It will be inactive for a year.

Future comes first.

Sorry my dear diary. :)

2011 New Year

Its too early for a new year to begin.

I wonder since when the time starts to pass so fast.

We celebrate each coming year like nothing changed.

Repeating our lives, always the same routine.

I wonder who will change this year.

Realizing the truth that 16 years had just passed by.

Every year we get more matured.

So many things to accomplish before you end the year.

Going forth and back from school.

Spending your lives doing homework and studying.

All of these memories is ending soon.

One more year to talk craps, fool around.

One more year before you go to college.

One more year before playing truant is forbidden.

One more year before we have to work for money.

One more year before you leave your friends.

Everyone is choosing their paths.

Will we meet again?

Will we be as close as last time?

Will you still remember me?